Saturday, 24 March 2018

Where Have I Been? Taking a Break

Hello! It has been quite some time; 19 days to be precise since I last uploaded a post to my blog. I have had a break from blogging for a couple of weeks, so I can focus on myself, my future and even on my YouTube Channel. I have been struggling with my own journey but I am finally pulling myself back out and I hope to be back with my usual Schedule from Monday. I also had a bit of a brain block and ran out of inspiration for posts. I don't want to force myself to write posts when I don't feel up to it as I want my content to be up to my own personal standards. I hope you understand. See you soon!

Thank-you for reading, Tay x

Monday, 5 March 2018

To Those who Didn't Give Up on Me

I thought that this week, for Mental Health Monday I would talk about the people who didn't give up on me, didn't stop believing in me and continued to support me when they didn't have to. When I had my 'breakdown' back in 2014, the secret of my illness quickly came out and it really gave me a sense of who cared and which relationships were worth keeping as well as the more toxic relationships that I would be happier without. There will be a lot of people who won't ever read this post who have helped and supported me massively within my journey but I am honestly so thankful to all of the people who really didn't give up on me and who went beyond what was expected to support me.

To my family; my mum, my brother, my nanny, auntie, uncle and cousins, thank-you for coming to visit me when I was miles away from home, thank-you for always making me laugh and for brightening up my bad days. Thank-you for never doubting me and for still being there after the hell I sometimes put you through. I appreciate it more than I can explain and I really don't know where I would be without you all.

To my boyfriend for accepting me for who I am, for supporting me throughout my good and bad days and for putting up with my baggage, I love you endlessly and you have helped me in more ways than you could imagine. Thank-you for dragging me out of the house when all I wanted was to stay in bed. Thank-you for taking me on drives and for letting me have time to myself when I need it. You've taught me that I can have happy days and that no matter what life throws at us, we're strong enough to get through it.

To the certain Health Care Assistance's at the unit I was in, thank-you for sitting with me in the corner of my room at 3am, listening to me sob and trying to make everything ok. Thank-you for always making time to have one to ones and for treating me as a person and not just an illness despite being at my worse. Thank-you for washing and plaiting my hair and for doing everything in your power to make me feel better.

To my closest friends, thank-you for always listening and never getting bored. Thank-you for the advice, tears, drunken nights, up-the-wall-chats and love, thank-you for always being trustworthy and for making me feel less alone. You will always be an important aspect of my life and I wouldn't be where I am today (in bed at 5pm) without you.

To the incredible and inspiring people I met whilst in hospital, no matter how many miles away we may be from each other, I know that we'd all be there for each other in a heartbeat. Thank-you for understanding me, for sharing my highs and lows and for making hospital feel more homely. Thank-you for making me laugh and for prompting me to 'misbehave' because lets face it, would we really have survived without the attempted sleepovers, barricades and protests? Probably not.

To the few teachers who actually believed that I was poorly and not just attention seeking for always asking how I am, always welcoming me for a heart to heart and never judging me, thank-you to the one teacher who made me feel normal and let me both laugh and cry about life. Thank-you for encouraging me to work and for also letting me waste lessons doing nothing when I needed them and thank-you for inspiring me, I am also grateful for you and I don't think I would have survived school without you.

To my manager, for not judging me, for laughing and crying with me and for understanding when I need time off work or less shifts. For making work enjoyable and for going above and beyond to make sure we're all happy. I don't think I would be able to hold down a job without you and your kindness. 

Even to my cat, who comes to cuddle me when I'm too sad to get out of bed, despite her being hungry, for giving me responsibility and for motivating me by depending on me, recovery pets are so worth it and I would be lost without mine. 

Thank-you all for being such an important part of my life and for allowing me to feel less alone, your kindness really meant the world and helped me to get where I am today.

Thank-you for reading, Tay x

Friday, 2 March 2018

Too Faced Hangover Primer | Review

Beauty product reviews don't seem to appear much on my blog anymore which makes me sad, considering that I am always finding new products that I love. I am trying to make it my mission this year to upload a new product review weekly but we are already in the third month and only one review has been written. However, I recently picked up the Too Faced Hangover Primer after hearing a whole tonne of positive reviews on it, I resisted purchasing it for the longest time due to its steep price of £27 from Debenhams or £32 from Too Faced (for 40ml of product). 

I am probably the worst person for mixing oil and water based products together, I think everybody who has studied Science will know that Oil and Water just will not mix and instead, will separate. Two of my favourite foundation primers are the Benefit Porefessional and the Smashbox Photo Finish as they even out my skin so well however, these products are both oil/silicone based and it appears to be rather difficult to find oil based foundations that would work incredibly with these products. Aside from the Too Faced Hangover Primer, there has only really been one water based primer that I have previously gotten on with which is the This Works In Transit Camera Close-Up which retails for £30 and is a mask, moisturiser and primer all in one.

The Too Faced Hangover Primer comes in a sophisticated box and tube with a pink to white ombre design and despite appearing like a squeezey tube, actually has a pump ensuring that no product goes to waste. The first thing that stuck out to me was the strong yet refreshing coconut scent, the product is actually infused with coconut water and probiotic-based ingredients, giving extra hydration however, if you don't like coconut, I would stay clear. 

This face primer aims to hydrate and boost skin radiance, promotes skins elasticity and soothes, smooths and brightens skin for a dewy, healthy looking finish. This primer is also formulated without gluten and parabens meaning that it is not only cruelty free, but actually vegan. This product is also Silicone free meaning that it would work well with any water-based foundation.

I find this product extremely soothing on the skin, super refreshing and nourishing and my skin does feel a lot healthier and smoother since using this primer. It really is a Replenishing Face Primer. I know I said earlier, but I adore the scent so much, it really lifts your mood and relaxes you. I have seen a massive improvement of my foundation once priming with this product, I find that my foundation blends easier, gives a much more flawless finish and doesn't crease or settle into my fine lines and pores. The product itself is lightweight, gentle and isn't too thick nor thin, a little does go a long way. I really couldn't recommend this product enough, it has become a staple within my collection and I am constantly reaching for it. If you are wanting to give this product a go but are still unsure, the travel size version of this product is only £12 from Debenhams.

Overall, I love this product, I couldn't fault it and am tempted to try the Primed & Peachy Foundation Primer but will it compare? Have you tried either of these products? What do you think?

Thank-you for reading, Tay x

Thursday, 1 March 2018

Self Injury Awareness Day 2018 | Judge Less, Understand More

To be entirely honest with you, I have re-written this post a whole bunch of times because I am having a bit of a mind block and don't actually know what to talk about, I feel like I have talked about Self Harm before, too many times and I am worried about coming across as repetitive or annoying which is ironic, because in order to end the stigma, we must keep talking. 

Self Injury Awareness Day has been around for at least eighteen years and always occurs on March 1st. I feel like this is a more quieter awareness day which either people just don't know about, or don't want to talk about. It is an international event that is recognised across the globe and goes by the slogan 'Judge Less, Understand More.'

Self Harm is such a serious issue in today's society, and is so dangerous, often even life threatening. I have realised recently that I am actually quite desensitised to self harm, due to my own experiences. In the past, I haven't deemed my own self harm as serious or 'bad' when others would disagree strongly which is actually quite worrying but it just became the normal in my life and like any addiction, I was in denial about how severe it had actually become.

It is essential that we learn about the signs and symptoms of others self harming in order to prevent it getting worse. Self Harm needs to be recognised for how serious it actually is and although we don't want to promote self harm, we definitely want to remove the stigma surrounding it.

There are a whole tonne of different ways that people may self harm, and there is an even bigger list of reasons as to why someone may be self harming. Over the past ten years especially, I feel like it has become much more well known to people of all age ranges whereas when I first self harmed, I didn't even know what I was doing or that it was called Self Harm. It is known that Self Harm is only a short term solution and can often result in the individual feeling worse. The UK has the highest self harm rate of any country in Europe and although it can affect people of all ages, it is most commonly reported by individuals between the ages of 11 and 25.

Since starting my blog, I have created a few posts purely based on Self Harm, in the hope to not only inspire others struggling with Self Harm, but to allow them to feel less alone, these posts include; Self Harm Scars: Gradual ExposureWhat to expect when Visiting A&E for Self Harm and Living with Scars and Stigma. Self Harm Awareness frustrates me, I feel like there is such a fine line between educating individuals about self harm and giving people ideas on how to self harm but it is important that we try to raise awareness because if not, this issue is just going to keep spiraling out of control until we reach a point where we really struggle to turn it around. 

There are so many safer alternatives to self harming that can be found all over the internet, it is possible to stop self harming, you just have to want to change. Please at least try to stop it before it gets worse and before it gets out of control. 

I do apologise for how this post doesn't really have a structure, I just felt that I needed to at least say something. I will leave below my own previous contributions to SIAD. Don't be afraid to speak out, your words are more powerful than you realise and you could end up helping others.

Thank-you for reading, Tay x

Useful Websites:
Mind - Self Harm
Mental Health Foundation - Self Harm
Young Minds - Self Harm
Life Signs - SIAD
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