Sunday, 27 November 2016

Juggling a Blog with a Job, Full-Time Education & Mental Illness

Starting a blog was something that I had been questioning for a couple of years but was never confident enough to take the leap. Back at the beginning of 2016, I made it one of my New Years Resolutions as even if I didn't end up enjoying it, it was something that I wanted to try. Creating and maintaining a blog is hard work, you have to use your imagination and figure out not only what you want to write about, but what others may want to read. It does take time and a lot of energy which can be rather difficult when you're eighteen years old, in full-time education with a part-time job, and that is without mentioning the daily battles that occur between yourself and your head whilst trying desperately to gain your life back.

I'm not going to lie, Sixth Form has never been perfect for me. I enjoy it, I adore the subjects that I take and I want to succeed but finding the motivation and energy to actually go in has been really difficult for me, hence why I dropped out of my first year and am still at Sixth Form for a third. However, I am really trying to sort this out which makes it even harder to find the time to write up posts. I have a Part-Time job which I must admit, felt like Full-Time for the first six months of this year, but now, after a slight relapse I have reduced my hours to between two and four shifts a week, giving me much more time to balance my life out. Although I miss the money, I have benefited not only mentally, but overall as I have less stress, more time and are therefore able to give my focus to things that are more important; my mental health and education. 

I knew that starting a blog may not be something that I am able to update frequently and put most of my time and attention into. However, I am glad that I gave it a go as it is now a hobby that I adore. It also has ended up really beneficial for my recovery by being used as a distraction. If I write up a post which I believe is successful, then I feel that I have achieved something, reducing intense emotions and urges and making me actually feel proud of myself. Since starting this blog back in June, there has been times where I have prioritiesed a post over my coursework but that is OK, because I now feel that I am in a position where I know how much time a post will take me, I am able to set myself a coursework goal that I must achieve before turning to my blog. I have learnt that due to the fact that I love to write, this page is my safe place and my get away when facing the stresses of everyday life and recovery.

I have had to try to get myself into a routine which I am still working on. I have an aim of how many posts I think that I can get written up and posted within a week depending on my schedule and depending on how much Sixth Form work that I have to complete. This aim isn't always achieved because as I have expressed many times already, some days I will wake-up feeling completely lifeless with no motivation or intentions of even turning my laptop on. On other days, even going to get my laptop is an achievement. It isn't even just the illness itself, it is the treatments for mental illness, therapy sessions, therapy homework, being tired or drowsy due to medication which takes up the time and quite honestly, makes me not very reliable but, I am trying my best. 

I also like to try and keep my blog separate from my personal life. I have a boyfriend, meaning that I want to also fit in time to see him throughout my weeks and I don't want to waste the time that I value spent with him constantly talking about my blog. This also applies to spending time with family and friends. I have noticed that I have become even more of an impulsive spender since starting this blog and am constantly using the excuse of purchasing a product for 'review purposes' but am hoping to change this soon. 

This post has been a bit of a ramble and all over the place, but I hope that it makes sense. Overall, if you are wanting to start a blog then I would go for it and just try it out because at the end of the day, there is no commitment at all as it is your own decision and your hobby. Starting this blog has been so beneficial to me and has always given me something to do. I tend to try and push myself on my down days to do some work on my blog, even if it is just brain storming some ideas. Just don't priorities it higher than your overall health and well-being, your education and your job. Remember, it is your page, your control and your place to be yourself. Although it can be difficult, it isn't as hard as it sounds.

Thank-you for reading, Tay x

No comments :

Post a Comment

Back to Top